When I was a kid, I used to read the description of star signs and was always excited when something great was written to me. Growing up, I left these columns behind me but if one thing is true, being an Aquarius, I cannot stand any limitation of my freedom. You can imagine how lockdown made me crazy then.
Now, having more normality in our life again, there are only a couple of things that is still not allowed to do, but there are so many restrictions which is more or less a limitation of our freedom – still.
Of course, I understand why we need to do certain things and I follow the rules, but a pleasant thing is becoming a hassle now. I love to travel and discovering new countries and cultures, but even going anywhere doesn’t give me joy at all. Even just going home is such a difficulty. Or going out. When there is a long queue in front of your favourite restaurant makes you feel losing your appetite.
I thought lifting the lockdown and going to work again will solve my mood swings, but it didn’t really work out how I thought it would.
I try to see the positive side of everything and find alternatives of my `normal doings` but with all uncertainty around, most of the time is difficult.
What an amazing feeling could it be?!
Well yeah, I definitely feel it from time to time. Have you ever heard a sentence “once my big heart will kill me”. So you know what I am talking about…
I have learned to say no for a long time ago now… It makes my life easier and protects me from unnecessary drama and conflict which I am not into at all. Sometimes, I still put others above me and in the end, I am the one who hurts the most. Continue reading
Do you want the same life as you wanted years ago?
Do you have the same desires, dreams, and plans as you had years ago?
Me neither… Continue reading
It actually does and you can give a meaning to it such as ‘is it too late’? This type of anxiety is the fear of wasting your time, not using your potential, or feeling it is too late to start something new.
I was talking to a friend the other day and what else could have been the main topic – of course – other than the coronavirus. We were sharing feelings about it and how we are copying in this unusual situation. Continue reading
…. and what is it exactly? We are living in a different “normal” now.
In the past few weeks, we had to adjust things in our “normal” life. Social distancing, staying home when we can, reducing shopping and avoid buying any unnecessary items. Continue reading
I tend to think that we are the ones who have an effect on our lives.
Well, this lockdown situation made me think otherwise. We all have readjusted so many aspects of our lives. The latest situations are out of our hands.
Suddenly, we all have new and unusual restrictions that we need to follow. We had to cancel holidays, cannot go out to have dinner, cannot meet with our friends and family when we please, cannot go to a gym. Just to name a few – and the list can be endless.
These are all against my – and so others – plans of course, but these weeks also have taught me to be more flexible and acceptor. It taught me to be more understandable and let things that I cannot change go of my hand. I try to be more creative when planning my day ahead of me, I try to take it easy when my questions are answered only last minute.
It is quite difficult for a person who has straight plans about her life, who likes to make plans, calculations and even spreadsheets to be everything is place. For someone who likes everything organized.
What helped me to accept the situation is greatness. I felt lucky to still be able to go ahead with my moving last week. Even we don’t have half of the furniture for a while, it is okay. I am grateful that my family and friends are healthy and safe for now. Everything else seems so little.
We are only dust in a big machine. It is up to us how we react to any situation that happens with us. We can be angry, disappointed or sad but everything happens for a reason and it is time to reflect on how we want to live our lives. Being frustrated and waste our energy on unchangeable situations or being more flexible and see how we can use the circumstances that we have.
What would you choose?
There are so many decisions in our lives that we need to make. A few of them are bigger, a few of them are smaller.
Usually, I take all pro and contra. Like to do my research and make even a spreadsheet. It depends on the topic of course, but I like to see both sides.
The latest decision I had to make where to live next? We have been renting the same flat for 2 years now and decided to move on to a bigger one. It was time. Me and my boyfriend have quite a different lifestyle. While he sleeps early (he has to wake up too early… fair enough…) I am a night owl. Having an extra room or living room which we don’t have at the moment will be definitely a great idea. Continue reading
I have read a blog post from a writer who apparently a blogger as well. This post was about that he writes about what he wants, not about an expected topic, because his blog is his blank space. This stack in my mind! How true is it! Continue reading
Another birthday, another cake, another candle at the top. Yep, I have a birthday this Friday. Khm… Thirty-something…
I used to hate my birthdays when I was younger because it always reminded me how my real life is different than it was in my dreams.
I am okay with it for a few years now, of course, but I don’t make a big fuss about it. It is just a number and doesn’t mean much anymore. Continue reading
Have you ever been mad at your friends? Of course, you had been… Let’s be honest, friendship is as the same as any relation – different personalities, dreams, desires, plans, ways of thinking. It is normal to have a disagreement between friends.
I had been angry with my friends lately. They decided to move to Spain a few months ago. They are still in London, but since then I haven’t really heard from them. We always tried to plan a night out but never happened. They were too busy with other stuff… Pf… Who wasn’t? They finished their job months ago and – in my mind – the only thing they had to do is packing. Of course, I didn’t know the small but important details such as they haven’t found a house in Spain yet, they haven’t found a new housemate who will take over their rooms and so on.
How should I know? They didn’t tell me these! I only knew (from my point of view) that they avoid me. I felt down because I knew our days are counted. Of course, I am going to visit them, it will be a great opportunity to explore Alicante, but I badly wanted to have time with them before they jump in the car and start their journey. Continue reading